The standards of your own life, the standards you have set, matter.

The standards of your own life, the standards you have set, matter.

Resilient. Strong willed.

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STUART: I’ll see what I can do Richard. As I’ve said, I don’t want to do this, but…
RICHARD: Thank you Stu. Thank you… thank you!
FADE TO:
INT. HORSE AND CARRIAGE – 5:05PM
Traditional looking English pub; lots of brown shades and wooden furniture/pillars. Old illustrations framed upon the walls surround the bar area. Robbie and Steve sit in the far left corner, inside a booth. Robbie sips on his Rum & Coke, Steve on his Pepsi.
ROBBIE: You’ve gotta admit, I set that one up lovely for ya.
STEVE: Lets leave it alone, alright?
ROBBIE: Alright Steve. But it will happen again ya know.
STEVE: Maybe, but I ain’t drinkin’ for a while.
ROBBIE: How come?
STEVE: I didn’t like the followin’ mornin’.
ROBBIE: Haha, lightweight. Anyway, unfortunately for you, today’s not your birthday. So you don’t have any gifts from me.
STEVE: That’s fine. Monday – Seven Stars on Goldhawk Road, right?
ROBBIE: Sure.
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM – EARLY EVENING
Elizabeth, with a phone in her hand rushes towards the door as she hears the keyhole rattle. Richard comes through the door and heads straight upstairs without paying attention to Elizabeth.
ELIZABETH: Richard? Please, please, please talk with me!
RICHARD: I’m tired. I’m going to bed.
ELIZABETH: I’ll join you.
RICHARD: No. Please… I’d like to sleep alone for a few hours.
ELIZABETH: Richard, we can’t keep going on like this.
RICHARD: I know.
ELIZABETH: We need to talk! Let me talk to you, let me apologize. Explain. Let’s work this out. Please!
Richard disappears from the stairway.
CUT TO:
INT. STEVE’S LIVING ROOM/KITCHEN – EVENING
Steve rips open a new video game and puts it on. As the introduction to the game starts, he enters his kitchen and takes out two huge steaks from his fridge. He carefully places them onto his George Foreman grill and takes out some ice cream from the freezer as they begin cooking. He turns to face the TV and watch the game’s introduction while he eats from the tub.
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S BEDROOM – EARLY AM
Richard wakes up naturally. He puts on some new clothes, places his wallet in his pocket and leaves the room.
INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM
Richard passes by Elizabeth, asleep out on the settee. He looks at her and nervously smiles. Then he carefully, quietly opens and shuts the front door, leaving.
CUT TO:
INT. ’86 FORD ESCORT (SLOWING DOWN)
Richard drives up to a town home in a suburban street before stopping and exiting the car.
EXT. PORCH – STUART’S TOWN HOME
Richard knocks softly on the front door twice. Within a minute, Stuart answers. He hugs Richard to greet him.
STUART: [awkwardly smiling] How are you holding up, my friend?
RICHARD: I’m the same. It won’t change Stu.
Stuart sighs.
STUART: Come in.
The two enter Stuart’s home.
INT. STUART’S OFFICE
A very tidy office with an computer, fax, phone and mod-cons. Framed certificates and filing cabinets surround the room. Stuart shuts the door securely and sits behind the desk as Richard sits in one of two chairs in front of it.
STUART: [lowering his voice] I looked into it.
RICHARD: And?
STUART: Twenty-five thousand.
RICHARD: When would it happen?

The penalty for procrastination is the loss of hopes and dreams

The penalty for procrastination is the loss of hopes and dreams

RICHARD: We’ll have to divorce because I can’t trust her. I’ll be without her though I’ll long to be with her and for a couple of years I’ll wonder and worry and wish.
He stares desperately at Stuart.
RICHARD: I’m at a point in my life where I’ve lived long enough to understand what goes with emotions and how things pan out. And I have the right to choose not to endure them. It’s my life and mine to deal with.
STUART: [leaning forward] Look, you’re making this more of an issue than it needs to be. Yes, she did something very wrong, but you’re talking like you’ve lost it.
RICHARD: I… I can’t help but feel that I have. Look at me, look at my life. What is it? What have I become? Hearing Elizabeth tell me she’d slept with someone else… I… I.
Richard downs the rest of his whisky and gestures to a WAITER for more. She swiftly brings over another.
RICHARD: I don’t know what to do apart from this. My life has become a routine of work and insignificant small talk with Elizabeth. Over the past few hours, since she told me, I’ve been overcome with a rush of introspective thought.
He drinks more and continues stroking the glass.
RICHARD: We aren’t physically intimate at all anymore. We’re not even that much verbally. All we talk about is meaningless daily activities. I took slash take no real interest in her life, or anything. I don’t even take into account the fact that I’m not a father, nor would it be plausible for me to be at my age. [beat] There’s nothing ahead worth going towards. I feel like I should just stop and accept what things have become. Allow this to end. This nonsense has just continued on for too long.
STUART: Richard, please stop this. It’s not helping.
RICHARD: Well what would? What could? I can’t take back things. She’s all I had and that wasn’t much. I don’t know her anymore. I didn’t ever, even for one second think she’d find another man or even be looking. [beat] I know I’m not attractive, I know I’m no prize catch. But we were in love. I loved her. I did. I truly did. I loved her with all my heart. I’ve got to do this, I’ve got to get it done. I can’t do it myself. Please help me Stu, please. I know we haven’t spoken in a while, but remember how close we were?
Richard places his hand atop Stuart’s.
RICHARD: For an old friend, do me this one favour. Help me?
STUART: (shaking his head) I can’t. What would happen to me?
Richard stares down at his remaining whisky.
RICHARD: I can’t do it alone. I’ve thought about it since I found out. I’ll never forget what she said. I can’t help but feel that I drove her to do so. I’m inadequate. I’m not the man she used to know. I’m not the man I used to know. I can’t stop thinking about this other man, and why she chose him over me. [beat] I don’t think I’ll ever be able to come to terms and realize this. Put it into “perspective.” I don’t wish to find out either.
He looks up and concentrates on Stuart.
RICHARD: I know you don’t want this, and I appreciate that. But your hesitation won’t deter me. Its got to be done. I want it done and I can’t do it alone. I’m not enough of a man. Please Stu?
Stuart takes a large gulp of his Guinness and examines Richard’s desperate expression.
STUART: I know you Richard. I know you well enough to understand whether you’ll back down or not. I don’t see you doing so with this. [beat, sigh] So. Alright. I’ll contact them. Please reconsider though, the ball will only be put in motion when you’ve paid them. [beat] I’ll make the godforsaken call tonight, but you’ll have to pay a large sum of money to them for this. [beat] Please. Reconsider.
RICHARD: Money is no object. I have a few piles at home for rainy days and I just withdrew as much as I could. I’ve saved up enough over the years and have no use or desire to leave it behind me. [beat] The house is paid off. Elizabeth has a job and so she’ll be fine. Without me, she’ll be better than fine, she’ll be free. She’ll be able to live the life I stole from her. Maybe she’ll have kids, maybe remarry. [beat] I’m going to miss her. I haven’t had many women. But out of those I did, out of those I knew. She was and is the one I loved the most. She’s the love of my life.
Richard scoffs and his eyes become glazed.
RICHARD: Even after she cheats on me, I can’t help but hold her up on a pedestal. She’s still my Queen, my goddess. My Elizabeth.
He rubs his eyes, clearing tears before they fall.
RICHARD: If you would look into this for me as soon as possible it’d mean everything. I know it’s very odd to say, but you are the only person I feel I can trust for this. And, you’re the only one that I feel would understand.
[earnestly] When the only thing that supports you, that keeps you going stops; you’re nothing. When all you live for no longer exists, this late in life, why bother? [beat] I’m not a forgetful person. I have a very good memory, and this is why I have to destroy it. The only way I can overcome these thoughts and feelings, is by ending them… by ending myself.
Stuart stares at Richard and allows a tear to ride down his cheek.

Demystifying – Terry Crews’ vow

“Demystifying – whenever you learn something that you don’t know, you’re going to have to tell me. And when I know something you don’t know, I promise I’ll tell you.”

From Tim Ferris podcast interview

“Get rid of anything that gets in your way”

“You are in charge of things”

“In order to have, you have to do”

“Follow your heart and your body will catch up”

“Now that I’m rich, what would a rich man do?”

“You are what you are now, this is all you have.” “You have to be it now.”

Memento dashboard: “Forget all the reasons why it won’t work and believe the one reason why it will.” Unknown

I mean, I don’t forget that you had to lie to me about being on your period to refrain from being honest at stating how much of a dictatorial tyrant I apparently am.
ELIZABETH: Richard, it’s not like that. You’re taking this the wrong way.
RICHARD: Taking this the wrong way? You had sex with another man, lied to me about that… Lied to me about the reasoning for your bad mood and lied to me about God knows what else.
Richard takes in a deep breath.
RICHARD: I’m taking this the wrong way? How should I be taking it?
ELIZABETH: [moving towards Richard] Look —
RICHARD: — Please don’t come closer.
ELIZABETH: Why?
RICHARD: Because I would prefer that you didn’t.
Richard stands up and walks toward the doorway.
ELIZABETH: Where are you going???
RICHARD: Out.
ELIZABETH: Richard?
Richard ignores her and leaves. Elizabeth lowers herself onto the bed and thrusts her face into the quilt.
CUT TO:
INT. UNIVERSITY OFFICES – RICHARD’S OFFICE
Richard sits at his desk and opens a drawer. He notices Elizabeth’s photo before pulling out a nearly full container of Paracetamol.
He heads to his connected bathroom, locking the door behind him.
INT. RICHARD’s OFFICE BATHROOM – CONTINUOUS
RICHARD (V.O.): I guess this is it.
Richard unscrews the Paracetamol cap and empties the content into a drinking glass. He covers it in mouthwash and adds a tile spray-cleaning product.
RICHARD (V.O.): This is going to hurt.
Richard closes his eyes tightly and cringes as he lifts the glass towards his mouth. Taking an accidental whiff of the concoction he coughs.
RICHARD (V.O.): No. I can’t do this. I can’t.
Richard opens up his toilet and flushes away the concoction.
RICHARD (V.O.): Why am I doing this? Things could improve. No, they couldn’t. I don’t want to do this again. I don’t want this sort of pain. I have nothing to look forward to. I’m going to get this done.
He picks up a shaving razor and removes the blade from the handle then stares at his reflection.
RICHARD (V.O.): Richard, Richard, Richard. What have you become? [slowly] What have you become?
Richard undoes his left shirt cuff and wrenches the sleeve up to his elbow. He tenses his arm to reveal a vein and places the blade above it.
RICHARD (V.O.): When I die, she will be… [long pause] No, I can’t do it this way. She’ll blame herself. She’ll have her life ruined. I can’t do this. I can’t ruin her. I can’t embed my memory and make her life filled with guilt. I can’t.
He re-attaches the blade to the razor handle.
FADE TO:
INT. WELL LIT RESTAURANT – EARLY AFTERNOON
Richard sits opposite STUART (56, short, bald, chubby) with a half empty glass of neat whisky before him. Stuart sips on a Guinness.
RICHARD: (pale, bewildered) I just can’t do this anymore. I don’t see why I should have to. At my age, with my experiences I know what lurks ahead.
Richard takes a sip of whisky. He strokes the glass while he talks.

Why can’t I make up my mind?

“Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything.” George Bernard Shaw

I’ve often wanted to start a whisky blog, but the dilettante that I am is only doing it because every fleeting moment I find I want to do something else.

Maybe we need a child. Maybe we needed a child. Too old now. Maybe she could have a child. Start a life without me. Don’t have much to look forward to now. Doubt I will either.
Can’t deal with this pain. I hate these feelings. Why me? What did I do wrong? Think about something else! Think about something else! Please.
Richard stops at an open field and exits the car.
EXT. OPEN FIELD – NIGHT
Richard walks deep into the center of the field and stops. He stands and stares at the darkness, then begins crying uncontrollably and collapses to his knees.
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM
Elizabeth sits on the settee with the phone to her ear, crying intensely.
ELIZABETH: I can’t believe I told him, what do I do now? What have I done?
CAROLINE (PHONE): Liz, calm down! He’s probably off somewhere thinking. He’ll be back soon. Don’t worry, okay?
ELIZABETH: He walked out without saying a word. He wouldn’t even look at me. What have I done? [beat] What. Have. I. Done?
CAROLINE: Look, I’ll come over. You’re drunk, you’re overreacting. He’ll be back soon. I’ll sit with you for a while.
ELIZABETH: Caroline, I don’t want to lose him. I need him. I don’t want this to be over. I love him… He’s all that I have.
CAROLINE: Calm down, he’ll be home soon. I’m heading over.
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INT. STEVE’S BEDROOM
Steve lies soundly asleep in his bed.
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM – 7:02AM
Caroline lies on the settee, passed out. Elizabeth, semi-conscious, drags herself out of the room towards the sound of the booming alarm clock radio from upstairs.
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INT. COFFEE SHOP
Richard sits alone in a greasy spoon coffee shop. Cheap furniture and a semi visible kitchen along with a stained counter surround him. The coffee shop is sparsely occupied.
He strokes his untouched and now lukewarm mug of black coffee.

Five years to “fuck you” money

“Five years to “fuck you” money” is a great idea, and a reasonable concept. It is something that’s attainable, especially if you’re a rap fan and utilize it for motivation, but it’s not as simply as illegally dealing or thinking about it incessantly, you have to have a plan and that plan has to be backed up by numbers. Yes, along the way you might end up changing your path, but that’s irrelevant. Nothing is set in stone and a smart person changes their mind, but have a rough trajectory.

ELIZABETH: I can’t believe I told him, what do I do now? What have I done?
CAROLINE (PHONE): Liz, calm down! He’s probably off somewhere thinking. He’ll be back soon. Don’t worry, okay?

ELIZABETH: He walked out without saying a word. He wouldn’t even look at me. What have I done? [beat] What. Have. I. Done?
CAROLINE: Look, I’ll come over. You’re drunk, you’re overreacting. He’ll be back soon. I’ll sit with you for a while.

ELIZABETH: Caroline, I don’t want to lose him. I need him. I don’t want this to be over. I love him… He’s all that I have.
CAROLINE: Calm down, he’ll be home soon. I’m heading over.

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INT. STEVE’S BEDROOM
Steve lies soundly asleep in his bed.
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM – 7:02AM
Caroline lies on the settee, passed out. Elizabeth, semi-conscious, drags herself out of the room towards the sound of the booming alarm clock radio from upstairs.
CUT TO:
INT. COFFEE SHOP
Richard sits alone in a greasy spoon coffee shop. Cheap furniture and a semi visible kitchen along with a stained counter surround him. The coffee shop is sparsely occupied.
He strokes his untouched and now lukewarm mug of black coffee.
RICHARD (V.O.): Can’t do it. I can’t deal with this. Why should I?
Richard stares at the coffee, then looks around the room. His face shows no emotion. He quickly downs the coffee and abruptly leaves.
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INT. STEVE’S LIVING ROOM
Steve sits in his armchair, shirtless, watching the TV with his cereal. A news piece ends.
STEVE: [after finishing chewing on a mouthful] Told ya Joe…
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INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S LIVING ROOM
Elizabeth sits anxiously waiting upon the settee as Caroline rubs her back. Elizabeth is no longer crying, her face red and worn out.
CAROLINE: Liz, take it easy. Rich’ll be back soon and you can talk then.
Elizabeth stares at the doorway.
WIPE TO:
The front door rattles and opens. Richard emerges through. Noticing, Elizabeth leaps up and wraps her arms around him while he walks towards the stairs. He doesn’t return the embrace and keeps moving. Richard turns his head and notices Caroline, sighs, and continues up the stairs.
ELIZABETH: Richard! Richard! We need to talk!
CAROLINE: Give him time, be calm. I think it’d be best if I left though.
Elizabeth, bewildered looks at Caroline and nods before heading up the stairs.
INT. RICHARD & ELIZABETH’S BEDROOM
Richard sits on the bed, holding a phone to his ear. Elizabeth enters.
RICHARD: Okay, I’ll see you soon. [beat] Goodbye.
Richard hangs up the phone and begins getting changed into an old blue dress shirt and worn dark blue jeans. He continues avoiding eye contact with Elizabeth.
ELIZABETH: Richard?
RICHARD: What?
ELIZABETH: Can we talk?
RICHARD: What about?
ELIZABETH: Last night.
RICHARD: I think all that needed to be said was.
ELIZABETH: We need to discuss this.
RICHARD: What’s there to discuss?
ELIZABETH: Are you okay?
RICHARD: Of course I’m not.
ELIZABETH: Let’s talk dear…
RICHARD: I don’t think there’s a need to. You’ve done all you needed to, and I understand things finally.
ELIZABETH: What does that mean?
RICHARD: Don’t worry.
ELIZABETH: But I am worried, I love you!
Richard interrupts with a sarcastic laugh.
RICHARD: Oh yes, I forgot.
ELIZABETH: Look, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you.
RICHARD: You didn’t mean to hurt me? Oh, that changes everything. Now I can feel relieved. [raising his voice] You only went and had sex with a stranger! You only betrayed my trust! [resorting back to normal tone] Or should I say I did? I mean, I don’t

We are all ridiculous

We are all ridiculous” was my misremembered sentence from the movie “What We Did on Our Holiday,” a cute film in which Gordie, played by Billy Connolly, explains this in a passage of sage advice to his grandchildren. That sentence resonated with me. Even though I’d not remembered it verbatim (it’s possible I’d had a whisky or “two”), I’ve heard the same point made in a great number of other ways, but his delivery of those words made everything clearer and gave me an epiphany that I hadn’t fully wrapped my head around. Despite my years.

“The truth is every human being on this planet is ridiculous, in their own way…so we shouldn’t judge and we shouldn’t fight because in the end, none of it matters. None of this stuff.” Reading those words won’t have the impact that watching the build up in the film or the delivery when Gordie tells his grandkids does. I’m not recommending the film as if it’s the best you’ll see, but it is heartwarming. In a lot of ways Billy Connolly reminded me of my Dad, not because he’s Scottish and in his early 70’s.

The reason why this resonated so thoroughly is that I’ve had many points in which I’ve resented friends and family’s actions, struggling through feelings of resentment or bitterness towards their behaviour without just outright accepting who they are. We are all flawed. We are all ridiculous. None of it does matter. If you can somehow resign your standards (within reason) and just outright accept someone’s behaviour, you can’t properly understand the forgiveness that should follow.

We are all ridiculous

My intention with this blog is to turn my life around by holding myself accountable to the content I put out and the words I write in the process. Looking over my piles of notes, plans in disarray and wealth of ideas, one thing is apparent. I can either concede that it was all for nothing, or I can quickly bring it to the light and change my position. We are all ridiculous, and in the immortal words of my long lost friend, Maya Washington, that you may know better as “Shameless Maya,” do you boo. You’re likely ridiculous too.

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Zero reason to care about judgement

Zero reason to care about judgement, there are much more stronger people than you! Be as tough or tougher. This is of course to be taken within reason.

“The struggle you’re in today is developing
the strength you need for tomorrow.”

“Change is the essence of life; be willing to surrender
what you are for what you could become.”

Perspective changing quotes when life gets you disillusioned

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These were compiled over a year or two, but everytime I actually take the time to examine these perspective changing quotes of mine, I feel inspired. Hopefully you can gain something from them too. Reading them with “Immersion” by Jaffna playing in the background will likely also help you focus on the weight of these words.

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“What you allow is what will continue.”

“If you woke up without a goal go back to sleep.”

“Many people fear change. They fight it with all they are. One thing I have learned throughout my life is that change is the only constant. There is no such thing as staying the same. You are either striving to make yourself better, or allowing yourself to get worse.” Quote from Unknown.

“The less you respond to negative people, the more peaceful your life will become.”

“We are enriched not by what we possess, but by what we can do without.” Immanuel Kant

“Be happy, it drives people crazy.”

“Surround yourself with people who get it.”

“A lotta broke people have more ideas than millionaires. It’s not the idea, it’s the execution that matters.” Success Jae

“Every 10 years, you literally become a new person. Our desires, wants and needs change every ten years.”

“You have to have a passion for what you’re doing. Don’t let anyone push you away from that. Trust yourself.” The GZA

“If you find yourself pondering in a fair fight, you didn’t plan your mission properly.” Colonel David Hackworth

‘I don’t count my sit-ups. I only start counting when it starts hurting. That’s when I start counting, because that’s when it really counts. That’s what makes you a champion.” Ali

“No matter what level you’re at, take a look at your circle.” Success Jae

“You learn more in failure than you ever do in success.”

“Sometimes the best road is the one you make.”

“Things do not happen. Things are made to happen.”

“Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about. Be willing to be split open.” Natalie Goldberg

“You’re only given a little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it.” Robin Williams

“A year from now what will I wish I had done today?”

“The person you will be in 5 years is based on the books you read and the people you surround yourself with today.” Success Jae

“Sometimes in life, our situation will keep repeating itself until you learn your lesson”

“One day you will wake up and there won’t be any more time to do the things you’ve always wanted to do. Do it now.” Paulo Coelho

“The showed you who they were the previous year, don’t get amnesia this year.”

“No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you’re still ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.” Tony Robbins

“I didn’t forget where I came from. I just cant stay there.”

“Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck where you don’t belong.”

“A man is rich in proportion to the number of things he can afford to let alone.” Henry David Thoreau

“You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do.” Carl Jung

“When you start seeing things a lot clearer, you start noticing people you never needed…”

“When you feel like quitting, think about why you stated.”

“A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write, if he is to be ultimately at peace with himself. What a man can be, he must be.” Abraham Maslow

“Journalism taught me how to write a sentence that would make someone want to read the next one.” Amy Hempel

“Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.” James Dean

“Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action.” Benjamin Disraeli

“10 years from now, make sure you can say that you chose your life, you didn’t settle for it.”

“Give yourself permission to cut negative people from your life, and surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you.”

“The only safe thing is to take a chance.” Mike Nichols

“It’s amazing what doors can open if you reach out to people with a smile, friendly attitude and a desire to make a positive impact.” Richard Branson

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“When the wrong people leave your life, the right things start happening”

“There is no terror in the bang, only in the anticipation of it.” Alfred Hitchcock

“My philosophy has always been: focus”

“Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration, the rest of us just get up and go to work” Stephen King

“Work every day. No matter what has happened the day or night before, get up and bite on the nail.” Hemingway

“If you don’t turn your life into a story, you just become a part of someone else’s story.” Terry Pratchet

“Greatness is not this wonderful, esoteric, elusive, godlike feature that only the special among us will ever taste, it’s something that truly exists in all of us.” Will Smith

“Self confidence is the best outfit.”

“If people aren’t laughing at your dreams, your dreams aren’t big enough.”

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You must change your habits, stop making plans and notes and develop a proper strategy with time lines and goals involved in order to get there. You’ve also got to live, and save for the future. Nice pressure I’m piling on you, isn’t it.

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